I was born to an idol worshipping couple in the Land of the Idolaters. I completely rejected their belief system at the age of seven, as soon as I was old enough to argue and protest. I never obtained any religious education whatsoever between the ages of 7 and 22.
Finally at the age of 22, thanks to Hashem, I discovered the Tanach on the Chabad website in April 2015. I was immediately intrigued and proceeded to order an Artscroll Tanach from Amazon. I don't know how and why, but by the time I finished studying Genesis I realised that I felt Jewish and that I have a Jewish soul. I got myself circumcised in June 2015. Since then I have been keeping all the mitzvo that I can, davening everyday(albeit without tefillin), keeping the fasts and breaking shabbos intentionally every Saturday afternoon.
I have wanted to start the conversion process since June 2015. There are however no Orthodox Jews where I am located, not in the entire country, with the exception of Chabad and they don't help people with conversions. I have been trying to get out of this horrid place, to reach any Orthodox Jewish community where I will be able to convert. But it seems like this is not what Hashem wants.
If you read this then please pray for me brother. The heart aches and yearns for Israel every minute that it beats. I can think of nothing else. But this is how it is.
Land of the Idolaters
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