I noticed that all what was ever said about homosexuality was men homosexuality and their penalty, but I never heard about women homosexuality. I'm really curious as to why nothing has been said about it even though our sages (of blessed memory) didn't leave anything unanswered.
I happen to be a woman who was born attracted to other women, even though I never did it neither am I planning to pursue my desire due to my faith in Hashem. I know that a lot of people believe that it's impossible to be born as a homosexual, but I had it in my nature even before I entered school. I do remember some incidents that happened when I was only 4 years old concerning my attraction to women. The only thing I ever looked at was them while men never entered my mind even after I grew up.
I apologize if I offended anyone with my words, but I'm someone who is utterly disgusted with the men culture and it would be impossible for me to marry one. All the men that I ever encountered in my life only thought about sex and women's assets and their own pleasure, even if they tried to hide it it would still be obvious. Have they ever thought about pure love or is selfish pleasure all what's in their mind?
Is it so wrong that no matter how much I tried to consider men I still can't help but to be attracted to women?
I had recently come to terms where I realized that I don't really want to love men and I can't help but feel that I'm born to be thrown in hell for the way I was born and it honestly depresses me, even more when I hear what Hashem did to previous homosexuals. Sometimes I ask myself if Hashem hates me for loving women, and it's something I dread.