I'm a woman who happened to be one of those who are born attracted to their same gender. But, I'm a strong follower of Judaism and I love Hashem a lot! Therefore I suppress all my desires for the sake of god, and I know for a fact that I will never allow myself to commit a sin involving homosexuality. Yet, everyone ends up loving someone, and I'm not an exception. I happened to (secretly) really love this one person, but I will never pursue it no matter what. What I am wondering about is, our sages (of blessed memory) said that in heaven everyone will be married to the one he truly loves, and nothing is prohibited. If I was patient for my whole life and kept on doing right deeds, then am I able to end up with that person in heaven? Even though it's homosexual?
Not really a halachic point more a kaballistic one none-the-less I would say no for one simple reason in Judaism love is the unification of one half of a soul (the female) with their opposite and other half (male). According to Judaism you can't possibly by definition be truly in love with that person. I know that sucks to hear sorry.