I'm not a Jew, beware.
You could have a look at Derech Chaim ("The Way of Life") by Rabbi Dovber, the second Rabbi of Lubavitch. Part one is called Shaar HaTeshuvah, "The Gate of Return", I don't know about the other parts.
It begins like so:
Behold, every day at the beginning of one's morning prayers, each person says the words, "My G-d, the soul which you placed within me is pure".
This is a work of Kabbalah / Chassidut and must be combined with the Mitzvot or you'll have a bad time, e.g. a "soul without a body" situation.
I don't know if you read, write and speak Hebrew; it's a better language for study than English is.
There's no limit to what you can do wrong and still redeem yourself; this is because it is fundamentally impossible to violate another soul, because soul extends directly from G-d without division.
You can, however, change the way you perceive the world and are free to feel doomed and evil until an infinite number of eternities have passed. If you know Rick and Morty, it's what Rick does. You are probably more free to stop doing that than this cartoon mad scientist.
It's "just" the things you want to build on this world that are the limiting factors; these things are quite literally your demons, and it's not possible to live and to completely avoid both angels and demons.
If I strike a hammer at a nail, the "strike" is a demon. Demons shouldn't be feared. Angels are what's scary, they might actually convince you to change something about yourself.
Addendum inspired by recent life experience:
I'm going to be discussing various forms of incest, welcome.
For this I have B'nei Baruch and the ben Chaim family to thank. They provided me with the haskafah that parents are supposed to learn from their children; this insight broke down a lot of my habits of mirroring my parents, which is hellish if your parents don't talk to you or to each other, and have been divorced for 20+ years.
It seems accurate to say that a large class of toxic interactions between parents and children are caused by a reversal of the parent-child roles; a somewhat well-developed English term related to this is "emotional incest".
I'll go further and say that "intellectual incest" is a real possibility as well, but that that isn't spoken about because that also opens ones view to "intellectual adultery", which is very confronting. Solving "intellectual adultery" requires both the child and their partner to disentangle themselves from any and all cults and culture (which are "living bodies of ideas") they do not want to be mutually engaged in, the nearest "cults" always being the two families involved.
For a married couple, any and all forms of incest coincide with adultery; it should be obvious why and I advise you to take a big pause here if it isn't. This is basic logic and too important an area to let yourself be led by cognitive dissonance.
Taboos exist for a reason. It's a real safety-interlock mechanism, so one does not jump to the cutting of healthy ties because of rash, emotional judgement.
There's a real possibility of misjudging this, because the fact that your body was once a sperm and an egg does not mean you did the fertilization yourself, and that you where inside your mother during pregnancy does not mean you put yourself in there all by yourself.
If one imagines oneself to be a grownup while still in the womb, this confusion can take hold with relative ease.