Due to undisclosed circumstances, I'd rather not go the local shul CURRENTLY, at the given moment. Spending Shaabath with the community definitely was an immense help in getting those ~25 hours without screwing around with different prohibitions done.
Thing is, when I'm alone for this time and have all kinds of electronics turned off and don't do melachot, I get bored out of my mind. It seems that my yetzer hara likes to attack me in those moments, where I sit in my room and don't do 'things'. Shaabath is supposed to strengthen my connection with haShem, not weaken it (I think at least. I might be wrong as it is in a sense a reminder of death). But after this week's Shaabath I was left in total emptiness and frustration. I feel like the bond weakened. It is as if though I started to repeat some dumb mistakes after this week's Shaabath. Summer is nearing and it is way more difficult to get over it than it is in the winter time, when a good amount of sleep (also during the day time on Saturday) gets me through soundly.
So, it is definitely not how I'd imagine a proper Shaabath should be. I don't want to feel that bored, blank state again. Sure, loosing track of time (waiting for the stars to appear on Saturday night as an indicator when Shaabath ends) and this total physical and psychological relaxation might be a good thing. But when I'm in a 'hyper' state (which I usually am after a certain time of refraining from 'activities') it gets a bit torturous - turning into a primitive thing lying in bed and wrestling with a chair instead of being able to connect fully with haShem. I also notice that once the phone and the electronics are shut off (the entertainment is gone), I contemplate a lot about the negative aspects of my past. It is crazy how certain thoughts and memories suddenly fall into place once it's night time, the moon is shining and you are left on your own, as if back in the year 1000 from a lack of entertainment perspective.
That is why I'd like to ask for some suggestions on how to spend Shaabath in total (human) solitude in a constructive manner. I imagine books would be most likely the best way, though I lack any at the given moment as I've read through my current collection (which is not very big).